My baby turns four today. Four. How does that happen? Someone once told me the days are long but the years are short. That couldn't be a truer statement. Becoming a parent has somehow managed to completely change the dynamics of time. For instance, it was just yesterday that I pregnant with my third. I'd always wanted three children. When I was little, it was only me and my sibling and always wished I had an older sister. I told myself that when I was an adult, that I would have three. Ironically, I BELIEVED I would be a mom of boys but I had just kind of assumed that I would have a mix of both. The good Lord saw otherwise, and I was blessed with three lovely ladies.
Teagan's birth was quite the period at the end of my child bearing time. I can look back and laugh now because the level of extra this kid came in on was pretty substantial. I entered the hospital today four years ago with a very mild cold and left with a FULL blown cold, pink eye and a brand new baby. Apparently, labor inflames any existing conditions. And yes, you read "pink eye" correctly. Imagine if you will, me, VERY pregnant hobbling into the hospital as my water had just broken. They stripped me down and strapped me up and got me read for the ride ahead. I told the nurse I had a bit of a light, dry cough but over all felt pretty good. As the contractions began to get closer and closer together, the less I was able to breath out of my nose. My eye began to swell and I began coughing a lot. When I told the doctor that I think I might have had pink eye, she gave me eye drops for dry eye. (I was like, yah. nope. pretty sure I have have poop in my eye.) An hour later, eye TOTALLY swollen shut. The anesthesiologist came in.."WOAH. That's conjunctivitis." Now imagine if you will, me the size of a largest version of myself, unable to breath, eye swollen shut and coughing up a storm, body making it's way to push out a person and holding my tongue from saying "I told you so". Honestly, I'd never felt so attractive or more right about something in my life. Fun fact-I coughed Teagan out. I literally was pushing and started to cough and both the doctor and Neil told me to keep coughing. Bada Bing Bada Boom. There she was. Quite the grand entrance. This was only the beginnings of the many laughs that Miss. Teagan would bring to me.
Life with Teagan is never boring. This girl makes me laugh. She drives me nuts. She never. stops. talking. She has gas constantly..and thinks it's hilarious. Her favorite color is purple. She loves to dress up and pretend to be a queen or a princess or a waitress. She sings with her all and doesn't know what dynamics are quite yet. She has one volume for both speech and song. LOUD. She loves it when I "cuwrl" her hair. She would listen to Frozen 2 all day every day if I let her. She loves her big sisters and her daddy. When it's time to eat you will always hear "Can I sit next to you?" if you are a visiting adult. She loves going to school. She can't say certain sounds yet, and I am okay with that because I know once she outgrows that, my baby really isn't a baby anymore. She loves to play Lego with Mia and snuggle with Zoey. She may be the youngest but she likes to act like she is in charge. She loves "chwocowat" and all desserts. After every meal "Mommy, since I finisshed, can I have a thweat?" When she does a dance where she sways her little bottom side to side and then makes a particular stank face while doing it, it ALWAYS makes me laugh. She is sweet but she knows what she wants and she knows how to work a crowd.
I try to take as many cuddles and hugs and kisses as possible now because I know soon enough, they will become less and less. I hold her little hand and fold the feeling of it into the corners of my memories because soon enough that little hand won't be so little anymore. When she asks me to carry her and I really don't want to, I do it anyway because the time is going to come where my old lady back can't do it anymore.
She may be four, but she faces the world head on with strength and a tenacity on which we older queens can take a memo. Dance on little lady and keep showing them what you got.
"Teagan Grace Pantig. Mommy."
How old are you?
What are you currently doing with yourself?
"Ahahha No. I go to preschool."
What do you love about your life?
"Yes. I love unicorns."
Women are becoming a resilient sound that cannot be silenced. What are you doing to contribute that sound?
"What are you doing to contribute to that sound?
"(Makes strawberry sound with her mouth) fwarts"
What is something you learned from a younger age that has stuck with you?
"Hmmm….Coloring inside the lines."
Who is an individual who made a profound impact on you and why?
"Uhhh Mommy! Cuz, I wuv her!"
What is something that scares you? What do you do to be brave?
" Clowns. With mommy and daddy. "
What is something that you want to accomplish and what are you doing to get to that place, if anything?
"Ahhh. I wanna be a powice officer. Cuz, I want to."
And now..a few questions to lighten the mood...
Dogs or Cats?
"Kitties!" (We don’t even have a cat, p.s.)
Cheeseburgers or Salad?
Beach or Mountains?
Sweet or Salty?
Lose all of your old memories or never make new ones?
"Never make new ones"
Disney..or is there any alternative?
What is a fun fact that someone may not know about you?
"Ahhh..I like when I see....I am going to find unicorns when I grow up."
And the final two important questions...
What is a common misconception about you that people make based on your appearance? What is your truth and how do you personify strength?
"mmm...Oh my goodness. Ahh Big." (then proceeds to sing the theme song to “Rainbow Rangers)."
You have inspired me. What about yourself do you hope to put out in order to inspire other young people?
"Umm..Give them a unicorn toy!"